Today I had my yearly functional-talk, and it went realy well, I got compliments that my work improved greatly the last months (no wonder....stressreduction, because a certain person is not around anymore) so if I keep going there will be a raise next year
So this is really something to thank God for, because 1,5 year ago I got a stern warning that I had to improve or otherwise..., but I had to much stress and was not able to function good.
The only thing left is my deep hurt about everything what happened but in time I trust that will go better too