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 on: August 17, 2017, 04:30:26 PM 
Started by Sherrie1003 - Last post by Mama Bee1
Thank you everyone. You encourage me.

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 on: August 17, 2017, 12:54:51 PM 
Started by Sherrie1003 - Last post by Hope
Keep reading and asking God to give you peace and comfort.  You are strong! 

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 on: August 17, 2017, 05:02:36 AM 
Started by Sherrie1003 - Last post by Sherrie1003
MamaBee1,

I agree with shroon. You inspire me. I only have one RAD kid and you have 5 great weird kids. I pray for you daily and I know even on the bad days God is always there to keep you going. Very few of us could handle the stress and stuff you handle any better.

God Bless, HUGS!

Sherrie

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 on: August 17, 2017, 01:15:33 AM 
Started by Sherrie1003 - Last post by Mama Bee1
shroon- Well, that was written late last night while they were all asleep. This morning everyone was falling apart, fighting and screaming. I was not fun to be around. I was trying to pack up bags( and bags and bags) of my late dh clothes to donate to a nursing home. I was supervising oldest rad as she worked on it with me. Otherwise she does a halfway job. I thought it would take an hour. It took all morning. I told the kids that they could each keep one or two of his shirts. So that became a fashion show with clothes thrown around. The guy who was going to pick them up never showed up.

My older adult  dd said she would watch the kids while I ran errands. I was ten minutes away from leaving and I asked one of the kids to go up to tell her. She answered that she was taking a nap since she thought I would take them all with me. Talk about lack of communication. So I told them all to get in the car. Then older adult dd came down and said I could leave any I wanted at home. No thanks, I was a martyr and took them. Fortunately oldest rad had a humdinger of a fit so she didn't get to go.

I could have spared myself a lot of this, but I had plans to do many things today. I was afraid that tomorrow would be a bad day from the chemo so I rushed around to get a lot of things done. I got little done, but I did get some things done that weren't in my plans at all, that ended up being more important. I ran into people who I hadn't seen in a long time and had a chance to really communicate with them. That was the best thing. I need to listen to the still, small voice or Holy Spirit when He is speaking to me. This morning i kept hearing that I should stop and read the bible, but I didn't listen. I ended up reading a little bit late at night. It wasn't much help.

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 on: August 16, 2017, 06:52:13 PM 
Started by Sherrie1003 - Last post by shroon
MamaBee

I am so happy to see you are doing well. You amaze me. Your post was inspiring to me. I have fallen into a bit of a negative nellie mindset which is not like me. Your post reminded me of how much my reaction does matter. Some days it is hard to remember. DD RAD is not of her own doing. I can't control her behaviors (only consequences and help to moderate) but I can control my response and mood. She may never change but I don't have to let RAD change my base personality.



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 on: August 16, 2017, 12:45:36 AM 
Started by Sherrie1003 - Last post by Mama Bee1
Thanks everyone. I went back to the doctor today and I started the new chemo which I thought was happening last week. It hasn't been too bad yet. Usually the third day is when it hits the worst. My hemoglobin is up to 11.8. I feel better than I have felt in at least a year. I wear a mask on my mouth 90% of the time when I am out. My doctor asked me why I was wearing it. I told him that I didn't want to get sick.He told me that I didn't need it and to stop or people would think I was crazy. I told him that I already am according to the many people who told me not to adopt our sibling group of five. He said that was different. That was an act of kindness not insanity. I am still wearing it. My trusty nurse thought it was a good idea considering all the people coming in and out of my house and the five kids. So I will continue. The 20 something guy from the cafeteria brought me my lunch and saw my bald head and my wig sitting beside me. I had taken it off because it was too hot. He asked why I wear it. I told him because I think it makes me look sexy. laughing6 laughing6 laughing6 The overweight, bald, senior citizen is a hot mama! I think he believed me.

 A woman from my church watched my five kids all day today. She took them blueberry picking and let them swim and fish in her pond. She also had a barn full of bunnies that her nephews are raising. She taught the kids a lot about caring for them. My daughter was thrilled in catching the biggest fish that had been seen this summer in the pond. It was a whopping six inches long, I would guess. laughing6 My youngest made it through the whole day without any messes in his pants. That was one of the best things that happened all week. They were so tired when they got home, most of them fell asleep early. So overall it was a great day.

Tonight I was trying to read aloud to the kids and the youngest was being a pain in the neck. I started with all my negative unenforceable threats. Then I realized he might need attention. One of the girls ran and got him some aloe gel for his sunburn and put it on him.  I suggested that he might like pretzels and carrot sticks since they are crunchy and he can bite down hard on them. Another sister ran and got them. I told him that when he grows up he needs to marry a woman who will wait on him hand and foot since he is the baby and has five older sisters who do that for him. One of the girls commented with a giggle that his wife will have to wipe his bottom. I said he can marry a nurse who works for a proctologist or a proctologist. She would be happy to help him. The giggler and the oldest didn't know what that was so I told them to look it up. They were grossed out which made me laugh. I guess I am evil. Evil, but it is more fun to laugh some of the time than cry.

I have been praying for my oldest bio son who is having a terrible time with my illness and his father's death. Tonight he messaged me apologizing for some of his behavior. I then remembered that I am one of four women he knows who have been diagnosed with breast cancer in the past year. One of the others, a young woman in her 30's passed away suddenly this spring and another seems to have had a much less satisfactory time with her treatment than I am having. I forgot how frightening this must be for him. Prayers for him would be wonderful.

Thank you all for your concern and prayers. I can feel it in the calmness that is with me most of the time. ( Especially now while the angels are asleep.)

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 on: August 15, 2017, 06:31:47 PM 
Started by Sherrie1003 - Last post by Evan
I am so sorry for your loss. Prayers of healing for your family.

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 on: August 15, 2017, 06:39:27 AM 
Started by Sherrie1003 - Last post by shroon
MamaBee

I was wondering how you are doing? You have a lot going on and I was hoping you have some calm.


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 on: August 09, 2017, 08:41:54 AM 
Started by Sherrie1003 - Last post by OHGrandma
Prayers and hugs for you, MamaBee1.  It was 2 years ago on July 27 that my husband passed.  He had been in declining health for 5 years.  Pain, and the meds used to treat it, changes a person or at least lowers the self-control we all use to control the uglier aspects of our human nature.   

I understand the relief you are feeling now, it will help you get through the next few weeks.  I also understand the tears that flow at any moment, when you remember things only he and you shared, or remember things planned and never came to be.

Remember, God hears our prayers and gives us what we need. Sometimes we need to tell the people around us what we need because they hear God telling them to be available but don't know what to do.  They are also grieving for you. 

I will pray for peace and comfort for you, and for your children to process this loss and come to a fuller understanding of family and the love within the family that brings us closer.

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 on: August 08, 2017, 11:03:43 PM 
Started by Sherrie1003 - Last post by Mama Bee1
Thank you everyone. I am still hanging in there. My oldest dd took the three younger dd over to her house for the night. I am getting another break from the children with my weekly hospital appt. tomorrow.

Thank you for the prayers. I have things that happen that make me cry, but I  am still feeling at peace about this and not tormented with regrets or overwhelmed with sadness.

 


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