Thank you, all.
Funeral was very hard. My Aunt made it through, but barely. She is not doing so well. Her oldest son is also fighting cancer - he's the one who lost his wife in the spring. Kiddos did well. Dd18 chose not to go to the viewing before the funeral and stayed with her Grandma in another room. She barely made it through the funeral service, shaking her arms, snapping her wrists, cracking her neck, etc. She made it through the cemetery. Ds15 was wonderful, holding onto me, cuddling, looking for reassurance, going to the viewing, paying his respects at the grave site, and being supportive of everyone. Later he put his feet in his mouth, only opening it to change feet, but meh! He did the right things at the right time and that was important.
We went to a waterpark and hotel for 2 nights afterwards to help kiddos readjust before going back to school tomorrow. We'll have to rice/beans it for quite awhile to pay it off, but it was worth it because at least Ds15 is doing well. Dd18 is hitting the highs/lows of the rollercoaster but gave a soft hug tonight. Dh and I are battening down the hatches because this was too easy with her and school's just begun.
I'm slowly processing all this, but a blessing happened: my Aunt and cousins for the FIRST TIME really showed me that they understood what we are going through and were so wonderful in the midst of their grief, telling me how well the kiddos did and how much they were supporting us. I needed that.
Thanks again for the prayers - God's grace is what got us through, on the wings of your wonderful love and support. Thanks.
anne
